June 2011
And then a thousand and one, after I have sucked on ice
I want to give you goosebumps
And melt you all at the same time” —~The Sensual Starfish (via extrasexy)
May 2011
I miss you in my dreams; I think that’s why I cannot sleep
These last few nights I wake in the darkest hour of the night
I lay wide-awake
it’s a cruel trick my body is playing on me
Making me feel how alone I am
I toss and I turn and my mind, how it races
Taking me to this terrible place
Where you’re not in my head anymore
Where we aren’t the ‘we’ that used to be
and aren’t those the saddest word in any language?
I can’t bear the thought of never getting another letter
because it’s the words have kept me going
I can’t take back what I said and I don’t think I would
I needed you to know and you need to forgive me
Can’t you comfort me while I comfort you
If this is this hard for me- I know it’s just as hard on you
You are the emptiness, you are the void
I’m not angry I’m just breaking and bruised
all that I’m left with is
The inability to communicate how hard I’m trying to
Keep myself together while praying that you stay
I’m replaying every word I’ve ever said
And I wish it had been more
You should know that my soul misses you
you know what I mean; we are one and the same
And I don’t know how it is I’ll recover if you walk away from me
I wish I had kissed you
I wish I had the chance to tell you in person how much I’ve missed you
Or that you are the thought I think about right before I fall asleep
that’s why I cannot sleep, I cannot dream
I’m afraid you won’t visit me there anymore
I should have fought for you the way I hoped you would fight for me
Maybe that’s what we’ve both been waiting for
Why don’t we face this battle together
There’s an ache in my chest and tears in my eyes
It’s you that I need when I’m in need of somebody.
Help me, I need somebody. The sky is falling.
What I wish most of all is that you want to see me
That I’ll hear from you
That you will look me in the eyes and see the things I don’t have the words for
I can’t sleep because I miss you
I’m not ready for this to be the end